My poor baby

My poor baby. I just don't know how else to explain that. It makes me so sad to even begin to explain what is happening or what could possibly be wrong with my baby. When Matt was born we all noticed that his right eye didn't open all the way. To us it was nothing unusually just that he would prefer to keep that eye closed. As he got older we noticed that he did have a droopy eye. He has been going to the eye Dr in Spokane and she sees him every 3-4 months to make sure that that eye is making the progress that it should. Nothing unusual. Well when he went in for his 9month check up i brought up that when Matt stood up he would turn his foot outward. I didn't want him to keep walking like this and end up having surgery later when he was older. So he was sent to a physical therapist for this. Well good bless her soul, she is the one who noticed that Matt's whole right side is week. From the way he crawls to the way he stands he has more strength in his left side that he did his right. She said this would be something worth looking into. We went back to her a few times and Matt got an x-ray of his hip to make sure there was nothing wrong with his hip. He was meeting all the milestones that he should be so i wasn't too worried. That is until his 1 yr appt.

Yet again it was brought up that his whole right side is week. His Dr. explained that this should not happen in a young person and that she would like to have him go to Spokane to have an MRI of his head done. That and the fact that he is very underweight, he has yet to meet a handful of milestones that he should have meet a long time ago and that he still is having problems eating and with his acid reflux. Being so shocked but not surprised i did not ask what she thought his problem might be and being the curious person i am i turned to the Internet. Wrong thing to do when you have a sick kid. I know i shouldent think into this too much but it is all just so scary. The 4 possibilities that i found...and they are very logical possibilities given his circumstances are 1) He had a stoke in utero 2) a very mild form of Cerebral Palsy 3) Brain tumor and 4) nothing at all. I want there to be nothing wrong with my baby. I don't want him to be sick. I don't want him to have anything wrong with him. I just want my baby to grow old and lead a good like and be healthy. But i know in my heart that sometimes we are given challenges and he just might be my challenge in life.

So off to Spokane we go to have an MRI. It was scheduled for Sept 17. No food after midnight and clear liquids till 6:30....my baby was going to starve and be very very cranky. So we get to the Pediatric Surgery Center and check in. They weight him...take his vitals and show us to his room for the time being. They give him a gown to wear and his bracelet to make sure its him. Then they realize how stuffy of a nose he has...well DUH!!! I told you this all yesterday when you called me to get his history. They explained that with the sedation it makes your nose even runnier and the fact that his nose was already runny he has a high chance of choking and making it go from bad to worse. Our wonderful nurse knew that we drove all the way to get this done so she tried pulling some strings to do something different but it was a no go. No anesthesiologist were available.....so no MRI.

Now i have to wait a whole week till NEXT Thur the 24th to find out what is wrong with my baby. I'm praying with all my might that nothing is wrong and this is all just a fluke....but its hard to throw out my mothers intuition.

On the way home though we stopped at Cabelas and couldnt resist getting his pic taken in this awesome chair that i just know he wasnts for christmas.